Decision

I believe in signs. I believe in fate. After rethinking about everything that has happened, the signs pointed that I should  not be here. I was supposed to come to Spain. And I have learned a lot about my self and my priorities in life. But after a lot of deliberation and thought, I have decided to return home, which I believe I am supposed to do. Before you judge too harsh, let me explain.

I love being in Spain: the traveling, the way of life, the beach. But unfortunately, the day to day of my time in Spain I do not enjoy. I like working with kids, love it in fact, but I have learned teaching (especially elementary) is not for me. I did not enjoy working with my teachers. While others in my program were utilized from moment one, I sat on the sidelines a majority of my time at the school. One teacher was great, I loved working with her, but again, she only teaches one English class so the other time was spent with less enjoyable teachers. I could maybe do this for a month or six weeks, but I know I will not be able to do this, and be here, in the beautiful country, for eight entire months. 

My luck with roommates was also a factor. I thought I found a place, twice, but one time the owners decided I was too young to live there and the other time the Spanish girl decided after all she didn't want a roommate. Third time may be the charm, but by then I knew I didn't want to stay for the entire time. I was still contemplating my decision and did not want to make a contract until I knew for sure I was staying. It would not be fair to me or the others involved.

As much as I have enjoyed my time here, I know it is best for me to return home. I do not know where my life will lead me know (if I knew before...). But I will look for jobs and return to school eventually. This was a hard decision. But since making it I have not regretted it. I doubt I ever will. I gave living in Spain a chance. This was something I always wanted to try. But I now know I wanted to travel around Spain and Europe, not live here. That is a big distinction. Therefore I know this is right and can't wait to start the next chapter. But before that happens, I am taking this "vacation" and running with it. Before I leave I am going to also spend a few days in Sevilla, Vejer de la Frontera, Cordoba, Baena, and Madrid. I am truly taking this "vacation" and seeing as much of Spain as I can before I return home.